STUPID

what am I doing here?
what am I waiting for?
where does this all end?
when will I feel right again?

there are no stupid questions
only stupid people

am I stupid?
maybe

maybe I would feel better
if I really were stupid

but I am not
not entirely

just dumb enough
dumb enough to be bored with life

or is it smart enough to be bored with life?
depends on your perspective

so here I am
clicking away at the keys at least

recording a moment
a moment of confusion
loneliness
remorse
grief

the sadness comes over me
surrounds me

I am being dramatic now
perhaps

but this is real to me
this pain is real
this sadness is real
this is real

- S. Marvin Tuomala, 2004