SORRY AGAIN

I must apologize
it is not my intention to inflict myself on you

I know that it is not good to be honest with women
honesty is the kiss of death

but I can not resist
my desire for truth is too strong

I must admit that I am drunk
I must admit that I am insane
I must admit that I am crying now

I am lost in the depths of depression
I am so sad for what I have lost
and I am so sad for what little future I see before me

I do not want this
but this is what I must deal with

- S. Marvin Tuomala, July 30, 2004